I want to find someone cooler than anyone I already know, and say to them, "Get me out of this town,"  and then they'll say, "Let's go."  Goodbye.  I'm so incredibly lacking tolerance for everyone I know right now, with the exception of Lauren.  Who I am simultaneously trying to call on  the telephone.  She's not home.click.Oh well.  I know I'm just upset about the stupid drama that went down last night, but I feel like I was forced into this drama, and if there's one thing I hate, it's drama.  But 0n a lighter note, my friend told me I looked like someone from Ghost World yesterday, and that made me really happy.  I need to watch that movie again.  It's been years.  Speaking of years, it feels like it's been those since I posted last.  Let's see, what have I done, I had Jury Duty this week, I don't know why I capitalized that.  It was funny.  And cold and frustrating.  I dressed up like I was nuts.  They didn't pick me.  I'm listening to this Pinback I just acquired, and it's making me smile.  I love that.  I also got in my first car accident this week.   I've also been drinking a lot lately, which isn't so good.  Nothing really has substance for me anymore.  It's been really depressing.  And I often wonder how I got the the place I am in.  It seems like the people I've invested a lot in lately are being weird and sort of stupid, but I think that just has a lot to do with me at the moment, and how I'm dealing with things in a pissed off way.  There's this guy I know, and for some reason, I feel like he would understand me.   And I feel like I'll always think that.  Now this post doesn't make sense.  I got a second tattoo.  I'm at the church being a secretary right now, and I think I'm going to sneak out and hide in this strange fenced off crevice of the building and have a smoke.  trying.