1:46 am.

Tomorrow is a...Wednesday. Hump day. I hate to be sexual about that day, but it always bothered me that it was refered to as "Hump Day". Oh, I got my shirt with the viking kitten on it! It was really exciting until I tried it on and well, let's just say it was less than flattering. Also, today when I was talking with my dad he said, "Just how much weight have you put on?" Wow, I about cried. Lately, I haven't been thinking about myself all that much, although I am aware of my thigh status. I hate to "fret for my figure", but sometimes I just can't help it (like most brainwashed Americans). Nonetheless, I am getting a sports pass tomorrow, so I can go swimming everyday, and hopfully get healthy. That is what I worry most about. Not so much being thin, but being healthy. Well, I do like being thin, I'm not going to straight out lie, but when I am unhealthy, things fall apart. Like me, for instance, and do I ever.

Now that I have nothing to do things are weird. I have no job, no school for the meantime, and no exact life. It's been making me think a lot, mostly about what I want to be doing right now, which is school, oddly enough. I'd like to be working towards some goal, instead of watching "The Osbornes" all the time (which is quite the guilty pleasure of mine). Right now I'm just doing load after load of laundry. And it seems to be suiting me just fine. I think I'm doing it because my dad said I was fat, and now I have to be productive.

1:58 am.

9:50 pm.

Tomorrow is a Thursday. I've heard that Thursday is supposed to be the most relaxed day of the week for anyone. I guess it may be because it's the day before Friday, and Friday means the weekend. I don't really believe it. I have had many a stressed out Thursday. Anyhow, I just bought this shirt. It's hilarious, to me anyway. It has this white kitten on it, and this kitten is wearing a Viking mask and holding two Viking axes, while saying, "We are your Overlords!" It's a quote from the song "Immigrant Song," by Led Zeppelin. It makes me laugh, and I like things that make me laugh, so I bought it. I have quite a weird sense of what it funny and what isn't. Maybe it's my age, I don't know. I'm glad I'm surrounding myself with things that will make me laugh. I do that a lot when I am depressed about life. I suppose it gives me a little hope when things start to get shitty.

I think I am going to get my Doctorate in English. I don't know why, I just want to. I also think I will be attending school for my entire life. But after I graduate, I am going to travel, and glean. I'm saving up for my sitar, and my tabla. I'll probably have to travel quite a bit to be schooled about those. I am truly excited about them, however. I think about having a sitar a lot. Maybe I could just write Ravi Shankar, and tell him I want lessons. I'm sure he'd do it...

10:04 pm.