i am up in the clouds
i am up in the clouds
and i can't

and i can't come down

this day is one long animation of my life inside my head.
i'm the pencil line drawing walking along.
in a black blazer and headphones.

i have so many ideas. i have a lot to offer. and i can't wait to show you all.

brush each nail with bleach abrasion
all need to bleed every now and again
it getting all over
wiped on our already blotchy bloodstained sleeves
i'll kiss your stitches, your swollen skin
through the holes of sweaters
tediously picking apart each fiber
borrowing in, to
patiently and endearingly caress the scar tissue
gradually hardening
around your elbows
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i’ve reached myself in dreams
found the flavors after
setting the tone with sounds chosen
to aid in finding places never been
diving into different parts
the unopened compartments

necessitating the memories
if i didn't write everything down
we'd forget what happened
even if we lived it differently
at least it’s known how i felt
done correctly, we might remember better
on a falsely positive note

otherwise every instance is a cigarette
slightly enjoyed, turned to smoke
taken in, released
discarded

i've reached the world in sleep
walked on pastel streets
didn't see a soul
i only heard two voices
yours and mine
and the rhythmic tones of living
an interpretation
rarely having felt as real as when i'm sleeping
nothing ever made more sense
maintaining my purpose
a presented objective to live for
when fear is fine too
at least it's something consistent
at least it's a rush
i'll stay up there i'll stay there
seemingly safer.
safest when i don't mix the two,
these two means of being; both real
here and there. i'll stay there
where everything is right.
when i only hear two voices.
yours and mine.

there's a gap in between
there's a gap where we meet
where i end and you begin

and i'm sorry for us
the dinosaurs roam the earth
the sky turns [green]
where i end and you begin

i am up in the clouds
i am up in the clouds
and i can't and i can't come down

i can watch but not take part
where i end and where you start
where you, you left me alone
you left me alone.

X' will mark the place
like the parting the waves
like a house falling in the sea.

i will eat you all alive

there'll be no more lies

things that mean so much won't faze the likes of you.

[May pretty horses
Come to you
As you sleep
I'm gonna go to sleep
Let this wash
All over me]

don't make me stop
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