well i guess everything that i've decided to do, i have done well aware that i don't know how it's going to turn out. oh well. we glean new ideas and experiences, and then tomorrow is a new day. tomorrow is always a new day i guess. tonight i watched a lot of salad fingers and random videos, then bought some brian eno, so i'm feeling much better. it took me a while to let it sink in that things are usually only as bad as i let them be. or maybe i'm just really tired. there's a bird outside my window that sounds like a really ill cat.

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