{ hank. }

i hadn't entirely realized how much of an asshole Charles Bukowski was. watching born into this amplified his assholedness to such a degree it became undismissable. i've been doing a good job of simply ignoring the masogynist side of Chuck. so, witnessing the reality of his personality established itself heavily in my mind, causing me to like him less, despite his writing, which i love. it was a mistake in the sense that, had i not watched "born into this" i wouldn't have known he was such a prick. but at the same time, i didn't have the whole picture of Chuck.

i guess what i'm trying to say is, i want to like him, but can't anymore, as a man, because his true colours were demonstrated to me, via the film. and that can't be altered. even though i kind of wish it could be. hence, a "mistake." but i guess i never met the guys, so who am i to judge.

did that make any sense at all?...