{doom.}

today my alarm didn't go off. i had to be here at 7am, and woke at 6:36am. it takes ten minutes to bike to school. i hate my outfit. it makes me feel dumpy. or at least frumpy. mostly chubby. i didn't have a key to get into the building either. so this kinndy named Zach and i had to bust in, which was easy, because one of the doors was unlocked. we tripped the alarm and ran down the halls. it was funny, but also stupid, because they haven't given me a damn key yet. i'm making it through each day. slowly. if i can make it through this week? oh God. that will be a feat. twelve hour days with ADHD kids are not fun. i can't imagine having one of those. or teaching them. this kid. one on one he's alright, pretty sweet actually, but in class he is literally taking years away from my life, in a span of minutes. i can feel it happening. so that lasts until friday. saturday i spend the entire day "babysitting". from about 9am - probably after midnight. i have overextended myself, like an moron. then sunday i work at the waffle box. why do waffles continuously work their way into my life. maybe it's a calling... monday and tuesday are the last two days of school, sans psychokid. they'll be a breeze. then. we drink. heavily. jeff will be back from his hiking trip, also done with his school kids, and his birthday would have been on monday. so i think we'll have a good ol fashion blow out.

why am i telling you all this? because i have a few minutes to kill, and i have to tell someone, and if i write it all out it won't seem so overwhelming. just gotta make it through the weekend... pray for mojo. now i have to go hang in recess, where the boys will require i play freeze-tag with them. which is usually sweet, but today sucks, so i'm not entirely down.

(edit) later...

okay. so i had a breakdown in the teacher's lounge. now i'm over it.
I'M OVER IT ALL DAMMIT!