Dear honourable gentleperson,
Thank you, and your curiosity, for said interest. I hope in some
small fashion you wouldn¹t mind if I included you on an infrequent letter of
events and up-standing releases.
Yours truly, Daedelus

p.s. graciously accepted, and returned for your listenership.
> 1. comments = thank you.

this made me happy, and i like to think that it was written personally to me. i'm blasting my ears out in a quiet room. everyone is listening to modest mouse with me. because it's so goddamn loud. last night i had terrible dreams. i dreamt that i was cheated on. and woke up crying. then i dreamt that i was at work with my mom, and brother, and from down that hall my mother and i heard my brother coughing and making these horrible guttural noises. i said to her, "something is very wrong with him." and as he approached, crawling towards us, he came into the light and was turning into a werewolf. he had claws and tufts of hair growing around his neck and face, and his eyes were crazy. they were red and full of insanity. i went up to him, and he knocked me onto my back, and pressed my down. i could have moved, but i didn't, because i love him, and wanted him to bite me too, so that i could be a werewolf, even though i didn't really want to be one. so i just lie there. and he sunk his teeth into my gut, and i felt him eating me. he didn't exactly eat me, but i felt the pressure of having my flesh pulled off. it didn't hurt, but was very unnerving. then, all of the sudden, there was a shot of my mom saying, very blandly as she looked on, "no one should have to see this." and then i woke up, and hunched into a ball, cradling my stomache, and crying. that was my night. but before that i wrote these things:

coming home to an empty house
i've found myself putting ketchup on most things
i can have all the pills i want he said
it's a grand existence
away from existence
it's a dog eat dog
me eat pills world.
cat and mouse i'm told
then the dog eats the cat
and down goes the farm

........ +


we are lonely, we are so alone
in this big house
can't help being so sad in this case
it's been forgotten that this is what we wanted
well aware that this is what we need
can't complain, can't complain, can't complain..
the street lights vibrate
should we go back to where we started?
can we even?
the possibilities remain irrelevant always
we don't need a phone here
is the door unlocked?
where did we go wrong?
it's night time again and time again
and i forgot to check the mailbox.


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ +


did i hurt someone's feelings
did i tell a lie-no i'd never do that
i would never ever ever ever do that
to anyone
i feel like a ghost
a puff of smokethat no one sees
because it's cold and we're all breathing
heavily in the frigid air
it seems nothing could ever make it warm again
nothing could ever make our eyes less glassy
we could never smell any better
than we do right now
this period in time has paused
on a negative degree
and humanity is so distant
that we are all freezing
that's why it's so cold
the buttons fell off of everyone's winter coats
and we've all been exposed. and alarmed by too much
bitterness and truth
there's no sense in rekindling anthing.
no sense in warmth here
come to think of it
i've lost all desire. and motivation is gone
i'll just sit back and wait for my train to arrive


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i love looking up at just the right moment.
it's a rare delight.
people talking downstairs
outside. shit the car door.
wanna do some coke.
who the fuck are you?
oh, I'm sorry. i thought you were
knocking.
huh.what.oh.yeah,no.
shut another door in a stranger's face.
gladly-gladly.
get outta my fucking hallway.
whoever the hell you are.
it's not okay. it's nt ohKAY!
yes it isshutup.
i've gotta knife
i'll gut you like a fish
and sell your parts
at the farmer's market.
you sly sons of bitches
why are you even around
anymore.
this is no good.


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what a weird world we live in
soak up the view of the hydrosphere
absorb it all with a wet rag
the ladies love me
i eat them up
teeth, bones and all-smack
my reproductive system
is a very pleasurable parasite
can't say no.
the women crave me
i so desperately want to not be here
i want, so desperately, to be somewhere else
with you.
didn't want to sleep alone last night
and i don't want to be anyone anymore.

modestmouseiloveyou.

i'm a descendent of captain morgan, the pirate. ask my gram. she'll tell you. it's true.